Lord, let me passionately pursue You, by silently serving man. By passionately pursuing You I am placing the importance in the right position. That being said, it generates success nearly immediately and that is why I have to have the understatement of silently serving man. The fact is that I have a tendency to desire mans approval and accolades. I spent years looking for success through fleshly eyes and not through Your eyes. My actions,my heart, my defensiveness, my personal successes all added up to nothing. Like Paul write I count my gains as losses when I realize that my struggles to look good to those I lead or am led by actually hindered me from being You in every situation. To gain after personal success is the opposite of what Christ life was and is. E entire existence of Christ life was to live and become a sacrifice for me. We all get the die a sacrifice as we think about the cross and the days leading up. The torture, the pain, the ridicule handed so that we can have eternal life and a blessed fleshly existence. But, the life that Christ lived was a complete sacrifice. I think about how many times I self-indulge, or self-preserve in situations. Christ didnt have that option. He couldnt sin if he was going to be our sacrifice. Every temptation He had to overcome in the flesh…every self defense He had to lay aside in the strength of the flesh. And I stress about how my mistakes may make me look, or my inadequacies prevent me from being the perfect example. Seriously what is this life for, if it isnt for others. What are blessing for if it isnt for others. I understand why Your Word talks about storing treasures in heaven. Its Your opinion that makes my world complete, and its Your will that makes my life impact full. Its Your direction that produces the most fruit (seen or never seen) and its Your presence, expression, and love that changes the hearts of people. Not me, not my two cents, not my way of doing things. I feel like this doesnt make sense but You know my heart this morning. I want my reward to be Your words of affirmation that I have done what You have asked me to do. I want to live, breathe and speak Your love and expressions to everyone in my life and every soul that I encounter. I what to be the tool that You use to make everyone in every situation know that You are calling them to their greatness. I want to be a part of Your plan to spread Your love to the deepest part of every heart so that can see the awesomeness of who You are and who they are in You. Here I am today, solely wanting to be Yours, and I am…Yours.
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