God, I have heard this many times….blameless. Ive given much excuse to that word labeling the Grace of God for being the blameless factor – but alas I must embrace the personal responsibility. Reading Timothy today I find myself reflecting differently than I normally would. We had a staff meeting the other day where I shared about the importance of our personal integrity. We, who are in ministry, are paid by those who give to the church out of obedience. So, when I read the passage this morning about the things expected of a deacon, and a bishop…it hit me the selflessness required. Im not just supposed to pursue holiness for the sake of myself, but truly for the salvation of others. The entire daily life of Christ and His blamelessness was for the restoration of the original relationship. Assimilating that into my existence, the love of God towards others now drives us to live holy yet look with grace towards others. Many times when we live holy for our personal feel goodwe become judgmental of others. In my life I see that because of the internal selfishness (angry and judgemental because I feel a pressure to be something out of fear and not a relationship). But when my pursuit of holiness becomes about others and is based in the understanding of Gods love in me…then the alignment becomes beautiful and I can live the Christ life.
God, I feel like Im not explaining this well – but You know my heart. I cant live blameless without You, and You want me blameless not because You love more but because You can use me more. So God, forgive me for my selfish moments and my pride. Forgive me for those self-indulgences. Help me to die daily and rise in Christ in every situation. I hand You my day, I need Your Grace, I long to be a vessel that is capable, pliable, and useful for Your demonstration of love. Thank You for this moment and the day. I am Yours. I love You

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